sigh. I saw the man of my dreams about 20 minutes ago: insanely tall, thin, gorgeous beyond belief. I would do whatever it takes to end up with a guy like that. I will.
Here's what I must do:
1. Lose 25 pounds
2. Finally end my current bad, going nowhere relationship
3. Become a little more successful and self-confident
4. Start caring and taking care of myself better and dressing a little more presentably.
I could daydream about this guy all day long. Fortunately I know he works closeby, and we're sure to run into each other again. I'm just so shy. I need to figure out how to get over that.
I also need to lose a hell of a lot of weight. I'm around 143 pounds right now, 5'9", and I'd like to be around 115-120. This would be convenient for my profession as well.
I need to eat very cleanly, very small portions, no later than 8pm. I need to start running, doing yoga.
I have to have this guy. Looking at him melted my heart into a puddle, and I haven't felt that way in a long time. I could daydream about him forever and imagine the creative life and very tall kids we'd have together. I'm already planning our wedding in my head! First, I just need to change some things about myself.
I think I'm going to use a goal journal, and use this site to post progress and keep myself on track from now on. I have nothing to lose, well, but weight and insecurities.
